Tuesday, September 11, 2012

Why does time go so quickly?

4 years ago, I was trying really really hard not to have my babies arrive to early. They weren't due until November 9th, and I was on bedrest trying to prolong the inevitable..

I've done ok with the previous 3 birthdays, but for some reason, this #4 is creeping up on me and I'm feeling really sad. Maybe it's the pregnancy hormones, or maybe it's not. I can't blame everything on the hormones, can I?!

The days don't seem to fly by so quickly when you aren't thinking about them, but looking back at the last four years, it seems they have flown by. I wish I would have enjoyed them more. Enjoyed everyday more than I did. Instead of being so excited for the next milestone, I wish I would have savored the moment.

Since becoming a mother, I really understand why my mom and grandma always said I needed to stop growing up so fast! I remember hearing, "I'm going to put books on your head so you can't grow anymore!" Or this line my grandma always said, "I want to lock you in a closet so you can stay this size forever."

I feel the exact way about my girls. This age 3 has been the hardest of all, but it has been my favorite. They are very independent, but they still want their mama, all the time. They are the sweetest little girls I've ever met.

I love how they love so genuinely. They truly love everyone, and I'm grateful for that.

I never knew how hard being a mother was. To be a good mom, requires a lot of sacrifice and selflessness. I mean come on, your days of going to the bathroom alone are ancient history. We can't even do that in peace. I'd say someday's we are sacrificing our sanity.

With all that said, I wouldn't change a thing. I absolutely love being a mom, even on the hard days. If it weren't for the hard days, I'm not sure I would strive to be a better mom. Why would I need too if everything was always perfect?

These have been the best 4 years of my life! If they could stay 4 forever, I really think I would be ok with that.

In less than 3 weeks we will be celebrating their birthday. It will be so much fun just watching them!
I have to get busy deciding how I will make their cake. I want it to be delicious and cute. They've picked their birthday outfit out already and we bought invitations yesterday. They picked out some super cute ones. ;)